3 posts tagged “frustrations”

It's cold here. I started out in the garage at work one night where it was 42 degrees. By the time I got home 30 minutes later, it was only 6 degrees. Brr! I know there are places that are colder, but I've been living in California for 6 years! I haven't felt weather this cold in 6 1/2 years.

So, yesterday my cold water wouldn't work. The hot water was fine, but no cold. Not that I really wanted to use the cold water. I could take my shower no problem. I didn't realize until later on that my toilet wouldn't flush. LOL. Well, I got up this morning and no water at all whatsoever. Not in my bathroom, not in the kitchen, nowhere. I called the offices, and they told us 2 hours ago that we'd have water again in about 30 minutes. Do we have water yet? No, of course not. So I'm going to have to go up to the front offices to take my shower. I'd really prefer not to, but I need to go finish my Christmas shopping. My mom came up yesterday and I got a bunch done, but I still have a few things left. Argh.

Merry Frigging Christmas. Bah Humbug.

So ends my first week of actual work at this job I've taken. Honestly, there's not really enough to do to keep me busy. I don't like that because it makes the day creep by. Hopefully, we'll take people out tonight and it will eat up some of the time. Then again, taking them out could be a bad experience...

I'm feeling tired. I'm also feeling more than a little sad because of the quality of care for people who have any kind of disability. People who are overqualified end up moving on to other jobs. So, what's left? People who are there to get a paycheck and don't really care about the people. I shadowed people for the first 3 days of this week. I have to say that my training was not very good on that front. It's horrible! And it makes me guilty for wanting to jump ship as soon as I possibly can.

There's a job opening where my parents live. I'm hoping to score that job, but I'm definitely not feeling very optimistic. I haven't had much luck so far. I've begun wondering if the fact that I don't have a Master's Degree has anything to do with it. I've been not qualified for two positions because I don't have a Master's degree. The longer it takes to find a job as a teacher, the more discouraged I'm going to end up. It really sucks.

Anyway. Have to go do other stuff so that I don't keep thinking about how much I want the job that I am trained for, the job that I am good at. It's cold in the apartment, so I'm going to go snuggle back up under the covers and read! Sounds like a good alternative to stressing about a job that I don't even have an interview for. Yet.

I don't get teenagers at all.  Well, I don't guess that's really true.  I get along pretty well with quite a few of them.  It's the problematic ones that I don't seem to be able to finesse.  If they are unmotivated, I don't know how to reach them.  I don't know how to get them to be respectful toward me.  I was going into a classroom this afternoon, and heard the kids crack up before the door was opened.  When I got in, the teacher was saying that something one of the students said wasn't nice.  I'm sure that they made a rude comment about me.  I really don't care if they don't like me.  I DO care if they're disrespectful.  There's another student who makes sexually-based comments every day, no matter how many times I tell them to stop.  It's so frustrating.  I try to ignore them, but they seem to think that it's okay to keep being disrespectful.  Argh!  I think I'm going to confront the one student who is really a big problem, the sex-obsessed one.  Hopefully, that will help with that type of comments.  Maybe I need to go back to elementary school.  I got along pretty well with that group!  What does that say about me??  LOL. 

We're having awesome thunderstorms today.  There was one crack of thunder that scared me, it was so close!  It makes me think back to my childhood.  I used to drag a chair up to the front door and watch thunderstorms.  In college, my roommates and I slept to CDs of thunderstorms.  I sleep better when it's thunderstorming!  It's been ages since we had a good thunderstorm here.  I'm looking forward to getting back to KY where they're pretty common!